Thursday, December 17, 2015

Trying something radically different food wise....

I'm in a couple of vegan groups on Facebook. They have really helped me out while getting over the hurdles of eating animal products. One of the groups is a weight loss group ran by some nurses. I love this group, because everyone is so nice, and shares lots of recipes and tips. It was here that I was introduced to the McDougall Plan, devised by Dr. John McDougall. Most people are very used to me preaching that certain carbs are bad for people with PCOS and diabetes, like rice, potatoes, corn... I have always said to stay away from white potatoes and corn altogether, and use a limited amount of brown rice. This has been due to all the research stating that these types of carbs would increase blood sugar and just mess you up. But.... The McDougall plan has shown great promise over the last several decades, helping people with severe auto-immune diseases like rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia reverse their symptoms completely. This goes for diabetes as well. But why am I talking about this? Because the McDougall plan puts those starchy foods at the forefront of your meal. Every meal has a base of potato, rice, quinoa, pasta, and lots of veggies to go with it. The big catch is the complete elimination of oil. No cooking with it, no salad dressings with it, no oil whatsoever. I use oil a lot, so the thought of relearning how to cook some of my favorite dishes sounded a little excessive. But after reading the results and success of others, getting first-hand accounts from people in the group, and reading the research, I'm willing to try it out. I also checked out one of McDougall's latest books, The Starch Solution, at the library and have been reading it.

So I started today. I created a menu plan a few days ago and went to Sprouts to get everything I needed. I also have incorporated my monthly produce delivery box into my meal plan so I can make the most of those veggies. I haven't talked about this in my PCOS support group because it's so radically different than anything I have ever suggested or recommended before. I wanted to try this out, see if I have the same results as others, and determine if the extra carbs were going to cause me issues. My Fitness Pal has already griped at me because one meal of quinoa and veggies exceed MFP's recommended allotment of carbs. One of the big selling points of this plan personally is from past experience. A month or two ago, I was completely out of money and couldn't go to the grocery store for at least 2 weeks. So we were living off everything I still had in the house - my pantry staples, like sweet potatoes, beans and rice. I lost 12 pounds, but didn't really think about why. I figured it was because I was eating less. But the more I thought about it, I realized I was actually eating a lot more carbs than I would ever have recommended, and I lost 12 pounds! So I figured that it couldn't hurt to try. If I gain weight instead, I'll rethink it. If I gain weight, I'll cut the potatoes out again. So here's my meal plan through Christmas Day. I took my starting weight this morning - 237.2 pounds, and I'll re-weigh myself Christmas morning.

Thursday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with almond milk and apples (will replace almond milk with rice and quinoa milk as soon as the box is empty - nuts are high in fat, and have been recommended to stay away from while aiming for maximum weight loss)
Lunch - Baked red potato, handful of kale and radicchio, grape tomatoes, cremini mushrooms and oil free coconut mango dressing (It's an organic Sprouts brand!)
Dinner - Baked potato with sloppy joe lentils and a salad

Friday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apples
Lunch - Leftover sloppy joe lentils and potato, salad
Dinner - Mexican quinoa with black beans, tomatoes, mushrooms, habanero peppers and *maybe* corn

Saturday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apples or grapefruit
Lunch - Leftover Mexican quinoa
Dinner - "Cheesy" Broccoli zucchini rice casserole - Cheese flavoring coming from nutritional yeast
Adtl Prep - Broccoli soup for pouring over rice or potatoes when I'm lazy

Sunday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apple or grapefruit
Lunch - Leftovers/broccoli soup
Dinner - "Fried" rice with peas, carrots, pineapple

Monday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apple or grapefruit
Lunch - Leftover fried rice or broccoli soup on rice/potato
Dinner - Baked potato and leftovers

Tuesday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apple or grapefruit
Lunch - Leftover stroganoff and salad
Dinner - Mushroom Stroganoff on quinoa or brown rice spaghetti and salad

Wednesday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apple or grapefruit and get potato soup in crock pot
Lunch - Leftovers
Dinner - Crock Pot potato soup with bok choy

Thursday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apple or grapefruit
Lunch - Potato soup
Dinner - Sweet potato and black bean enchiladas

Friday:
Breakfast - Oatmeal with apple or grapefruit
Lunch/Dinner - Whatever random thing I come up with that I can take to my Dad's for Christmas

December Goals

HOLY CRAP IT'S THE END OF 2015. I'm a little late in posting this, but better late than never! Here were November's goals:

- Finish Nutrition course final by Nov 15 - YES YES YES! And I scored a 96 overall!
- Start Dyslexia Therapist course on Nov 16 - Yep! 2 of 10 modules complete
- Visit family for Thanksgiving - Nope. Family cancelled, and I had a horrible migraine (damn gluten). So we hung out at home and ate mashed potatoes.
- Get most (if not all) handmade Xmas gifts completed - Yes! I'm fairly certain all I have left is to put some of those handmade gifts in the proper containers for distribution.
- Get the Christmas Card exchange lists out to all participants - Done!
- Get Christmas cards ready to mail - Mailed! I have one more card to make, but I've been really slow because I want the wording to be PERFECT.
- Go to yoga at least once - Nope. But I did buy a groupon for another studio close to home, and I have one prepaid class at my favorite hot yoga studio. I'll be going soon.
- Reorganize closet with warm clothes up front - Yep! I didn't really have much to move forward, but it sure is easy to find clothes in my "I'm still totally asleep" phase.

I don't think I have EVER seen so many "Dones" on my personal goal list. I'm super excited. So I need to think about my goals for the rest of December. There's only 2 weeks left, so I'll make this list fairly simple.

December:
- Finish at least 2-4 more modules in my Dyslexia Therapist course
- Yoga!
- Finish wrapping all gifts
- Finish my Christmas card to a special couple
- Visit Hubs' grandmother a few hours away
- Finish at least 1 week on the McDougall Plan (details in the next blog post)
- Sit down with Hubs and get our 2016 Plan written
- Sell some unneeded stuff in the house/storage, like the extra desk and washing machine

My list for the month sounds way too easy, so maybe I'll get it done like last month!

HAVE A BLESSED YULE, MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY SATURNALIA, HAPPY HANUKKAH, HAPPY KWANZAA and whatever other holidays are around this time of year. In short, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

November Goals

October goals were a bust. I'm starting to think that my list of goals should be things I don't want to do, so I can accomplish not doing things.

October:
- Pay someone to clean my kitchen - NOPE
- Get kitchen organized - NOPE
- Go to yoga at least once - NOPE. Paid for the class, but didn't go.
- Work enough to not stress about next month's paycheck- OH HELL NO.
- Get some items listed for sale on eBay / garage sales- NOPE
- Work on eating healthier again - YES.
- Sit down with Hubs and make a plan to change things up over the next few months - NOPE. He thinks that nothing needs to change.
- Use the October 12x30 Cooking Challenge to focus on food - SORTA. I did 2 posts. That's better than none.
- Finish the review guides for my final exams - EHHHH... I finished one page of 5.
- Write up a proposal for custom appointment software at Mom's job - NOPE. Decided it wasn't worth my time because I know they can't and won't pay what I'm worth.

Honestly, I don't know what I did in October besides survive. Scratch that, Hubs and I did rearrange the office a second time so that both of our computers were in the same room. This also eliminated the ability to watch tv in bed since we were watching on Hubs' computer, and that helps my sleep. And we moved offices at work.

Let's try November's goals. Some of these are already in the works, so I might be successful this month.

November:
- Finish Nutrition course final by Nov 15
- Start Dyslexia Therapist course on Nov 16
- Visit family for Thanksgiving
- Get most (if not all) handmade Xmas gifts completed
- Get the Christmas Card exchange lists out to all participants
- Get Christmas cards ready to mail
- Go to yoga at least once
- Reorganize closet with warm clothes up front

I think I can do this!

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

What I learned from a raw vegan detox

Here it is, the end of the dang month, and I haven't made very many food posts. So much for doing a lot of #12x30Challenge posts.

But I did do something important this month. I tried a 7-day raw vegan detox. I've been wanting to do one for a while, but every one that I found used a TON of celery, and I hate celery. Plus, it's on my food sensitivity list, so it gives me an extra reason to hate the stuff. But this one I found from Gourmandelle didn't have much, so supplementing a few ingredients was easy. My mom and I tried it together. She didn't last as long as I did. The first few days weren't bad. I wasn't hungry between meals, and I didn't feel deprived at all. I actually couldn't eat as much as I was supposed to. The recipes made a ton of food. I was doing pretty good until day 5. That's when I broke down and went to Chipotle. At least I ate vegetarian, so that counts for something, right? Here's what I determined from trying this:
1) I ate way too much fruit and not enough protein - because I didn't eat nuts with breakfast like I was supposed to.
2) My body needs grains. It might not like gluten, but quinoa and brown rice are a-ok for me!
3) A raw lifestyle won't work for me.

I also gained two pounds - but I didn't weigh myself until after I ate a celebratory gluten free chocolate donut, so I'm not ruling out weight gain from that. However, my hands appear to be smaller, and my rings felt like they were going to fall off. So maybe I didn't lose any weight, but I did appear to lose some inflammation.

I'm going to keep going with my pursuit to eat healthy, and I'm getting much better about becoming a vegetarian, and maybe future vegan. (I'm considering a whole post on my thoughts about that...)

Saturday, October 24, 2015

GFAF Expo


Hubs and I took the twin 6-yr-old nieces (Princess and Namesake) to the Gluten Free Allergen Free Expo last weekend. It's one of my favorite events of the year - mainly because it's a cheap way to try expensive products before I buy them. For example - I love Rudi's GF bread, but hate Udi's. I wasted money trying Udi's because they weren't at the expo. I just bought it to try something different.

I knew the girls would love going from table to table getting free stuff (it's like Christmas!), and Princess has a dairy allergy. I wanted to be able to get lots of coupons for their mom and find tasty treats that won't send Princess to the hospital. I can't begin to explain how happy she was to try a cheese quesadilla made with Daiya slices. Speaking of Daiya, this was the first time I've tried it. I was afraid to pay the price and hate it, so I hadn't tried any non-dairy cheese yet. And wow, that was a tasty quesadilla!!! More Daiya cheese will be making it's way to our fridge at some point.

The Dallas Morning News had a prize wheel set up. What child can resist those? Well Namesake was with Hubs, spun first and landed on a prize she was too young to get, so they let her spin again. She won a t-shirt. Princess and I got up to the table and the guy realized we had twins. As she went to spin, he jokingly said "She better not land on a t-shirt. Twins can't have the same prizes." Of course, she landed on the t-shirt as well. I was pretty happy about it, because that meant no fighting over who got what. (Thank you!!!)

They also enjoyed meeting Dr. Derek and Dr. Bekah, who run Optimized Living Institute. They are into nutrition and functional medicine, and have been very helpful in the DFW PCOS Cysters group.

Their favorite part of the event was going around to every table to pick up coupons. Their mother and I have trained them well :) When we got home, we dumped everything out on the floor and started sorting between coupons, brochures, cookies, chips, etc. My living room was covered in free stuff. They had a lot of fun, and I'm glad.

Oh, and Enjoy Life had a photo booth! >>

Friday, October 23, 2015

Funko Fridays: Funko Collections I Want to Complete

I've always collected items, though I'm not sure why. I love frogs and fairies. They started my collections. Then Hubs decided that he loved penguins. When we got married, penguins came up more and more because they mate for life. Hubs decided that I was his penguin, I was the only one he would ever want. So we started out penguin collection. That's harder than it may seem, because attempting to keep a year-long collection of penguins without looking like you forgot to take down your Christmas decor is almost impossible. But because I'm awesome, I've done pretty well.

Then we started watching Doctor Who. We were almost a decade late, but better now than never. I've always been a little bit of a geek. I love Star Trek and computers. But Doctor Who? That might just have managed to beat Star Trek on my favorite series list. Why? Because I'm watching the series for the third time and still not tired of it. And I want to see the classic series. We have a small collection of Doctor Who items, like posters that say "Bow Ties are Cool" and exploding Van Gogh Tardis puzzles. I've told my husband that if a man in a blue box ever asks me to travel the universe, I'm going. Could you imagine having that ability? To visit vast reaches of space and time, and still make it back home for dinner (although maybe a year late)? I'd jump at the chance.

Then those adorable little figures from Funko started making an appearance. Have you seen the Adipose one? The adipose episode is one of my all time favorites - who wouldn't love to lose weight by creating fat blob babies? I'd happily make 80 little snaggle-toothed marshmallows. If I was to start a Funko collection - it would have to be the Doctor Who set. I love the different available options, like The Big Bang Theory, X Files and Star Trek, but we'd show our Whovian sides first! There are 18 in the collection, and this is the one I want first!

***Edit: Hubs bought me my fat blob baby keychain for our anniversary!!!!***


Do you like Funko? Check out the FunkoFridays blog and link up with us! 

Funko Fridays hosted by KimiWho.com and dePepi.com

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Infertility in the real world

Today I'm irked. Let's talk about childlessness, again. Lately there have been more and more celebrities coming out as infertile, begging people to stop asking about when a couple is going to have kids. At first I was really excited, because it takes celebrities to get awareness these days. Of course, this all changed when I read today that Chrissy Teagan and John Legend are expecting. Less than a month ago, she was telling people to stop asking, and now she's pregnant. So it's pretty likely that she was already pregnant, but keeping it a secret at that time. How the heck does that help spread awareness about infertility?

If anything, it shows that people don't want to talk about something they are fighting through until they have beaten the odds. As a fully-fledged member of the Childless Not By Choice club, this really pisses me off. We don't get to "overcome" childlessness. This is a forever deal. We don't get to "relax and it will happen." We don't get to "just keep trying." We are stuck as outsiders - those people who don't understand real life or true love because we can't have kids. Oh, that "true love" shit pisses me off too. I can't tell you how many times I've seen stupid posts on facebook about how being a mother is the best thing in the world, and that you haven't really known love until you had a child of your own. Seriously? Most people don't realize or are completely unaware that some of the things they say can really hurt others. I know this sounds like a case of #butthurt, but really? The true love comments essentially condemn childless men and women to a life of less love. We're told that we aren't worth true love because we are unable to have kids - no matter what the reason. I could have 15 nieces and nephews that love me more than their mother, but I don't know true love. I could be married to my soul mate, but I don't know true love. I had a step-son that started calling me mom before his own mother, but I don't know true love. See how shitty that one true love comment becomes?

I could curse the person responsible every day for being the reason my husband can't have kids. I could also attempt to cheat on my husband to get pregnant. He wouldn't care - because he'd finally be a father. That's how desperate some people are to start a family. We are looked down upon because we have no offspring. We have been told by adoption agencies that a stay-at-home father looks like a child molester in the making. I have been told that because I'm depressed (partially because of not being a mom) and bipolar, that I can't adopt. We've been told that because we use mobility aids, we can't adopt. We've been told that because we aren't Christian, we can't adopt. Yes, I realize that that there are ways around this. We don't have to use an adoption agency to adopt. But we have to find someone willing to give up their child. We could try in-vitro fertilization, if I got someone else's sperm and the $10-20k per attempt to get pregnant. Some people can foster, and I admire them. We can't do that, for a lot of the same reasons that we can't adopt. At this moment, and for the foreseeable future, our childlessness is guaranteed. Maybe we'll come into a windfall of money in the future and be able to have kids then. Maybe. Maybe.

I'm so sick of the "Don't give up hope" comments too. What hope is there for us? There are hundreds of people in the childless groups I'm in that really, truly deserve to be parents. They didn't give up hope until there was no hope left to give. When menopause set in, cancer forced a hysterectomy, IVF didn't work, life didn't go as planned.... The list goes on. No, I'm not 30 yet. I could have 15 more years to try and get pregnant. There might be a tiny chance that life changes and we somehow manage to have children. And at that point in my life, I'll remember how painful it was to be told that I wasn't worth life because I wasn't a mom. That I didn't matter because I didn't raise a child. And I won't say non-mothers don't understand true love. Because the love we have for the child that will never be can't compare to the love a mother has for her children. You get to see a physical manifestation of love. We can only dream of ours.

So when you look at your children, remember how lucky you are that you have them. There are millions of people all over the world that would give up everything to be a parent. We exist too.

Yes, I'm a little frustrated today, and I needed to vent.

Friday, October 2, 2015

October Goals

So Sept was a partial bust. It came with a lot of stress and some big changes. My goals were pretty much thrown out the window. But I've made some heartbreaking decisions and I think that October will be better.

I have decided to temporarily stop all efforts on my support group/non-profit. I've been really stressed out about it, and I am making myself physically sick. So I'm probably not doing anything in regards to that group until the beginning of the new year. I need the next few months to focus on myself. It's going to be hard to give up the group, but I trust that my best friend can keep it afloat until I'm ready to try again.

I am glad that Hubs and I got the office rearranged. We moved our desks into the same room, along with our computers. That has solved the problem of my need for him to be in my personal bubble. We can be in the same room and do completely different things now! So he can play video games while I work. It will be of big help as I focus on school and work for the next few months. It also eliminates the ability to watch tv in bed, and I think that it a big step towards getting better sleep.

Here were September's goals:
- Finish rearranging the office - DONE!!!
- Start a batch of homemade kombucha - NO
- Pay someone to clean my kitchen - NO
- Complete all 3 miles at the PCOS Awareness Walk - NO. 11 people did, but I got super sick that weekend and didn't get to go.
- Create some more PCOS Awareness images for Facebook - YES
- Go to a yoga class at least once - NO
- Lost 5 pounds - NO
- Work enough to not stress about next month's paycheck - YES
- Get some items listed for sale on eBay - NO
- Start work on some handmade cards for etsy - NO
- Create 1+ shirt designs for CafePress - NO

A lot of October goals are recycled because they still need to get done. But I think that if I focus, I can get them done. And if I find ways to get Hubs involved, that helps too.

October:
- Pay someone to clean my kitchen
- Get kitchen organized
- Go to yoga at least once
- Work enough to not stress about next month's paycheck
- Get some items listed for sale on eBay / garage sales
- Work on eating healthier again
- Sit down with Hubs and make a plan to change things up over the next few months
- Use the October 12x30 Cooking Challenge to focus on food
- Finish the review guides for my final exams
- Write up a proposal for custom appointment software at Mom's job



Friday, September 4, 2015

September Monthly Goals

I haven't written a monthly goals post in several months, and I think I need to get back to it! Since it's still fairly early, here it goes!

September Goals:
- Finish rearranging the office
- Start a batch of homemade kombucha
- Pay someone to clean my kitchen
- Complete all 3 miles at the PCOS Awareness Walk
- Create some more PCOS Awareness images for Facebook
- Go to a yoga class at least once
- Lost 5 pounds
- Work enough to not stress about next month's paycheck
- Get some items listed for sale on eBay
- Start work on some handmade cards for etsy
- Create 1+ shirt designs for CafePress

I know this list seems long, but most of the items are fairly easy, and I think I can do it! I might have to get some assistance, but that's ok.

What are your goals for the month?


Friday, August 28, 2015

Life goes on

I haven't blogged in a little while. I've been meaning to. I'd start one, then never finish it, or think about it but not actually follow through. But with the latest events, I need to get them out somewhere.

1) Roomie unexpectedly got transferred to another state. He had a week to pack and move. Honestly it broke my heart. In the past year, Hubs and I had grown quite fond of him. We knew that he'd eventually head back to his home state, but this was rather sudden. It definitely sucks from a financial standpoint, but I don't care about that at all. I just want my roomie back. The house is quiet. Hubs and I have always enjoyed having a third person in our lives. We were the Three Muskateers. Team Rocket. And now we aren't. He's been gone two weeks now. I stopped crying after the first weekend, but I had to completely rearrange his old room for that. He left so much behind that I can't look around the apartment without thinking about him. I told Hubs it felt like going through a bad breakup - except I can still play computer games with him on occasion. Hubs asked if we should start looking for another roommate and I don't think I can handle that. I have to get over this Roomie first. I joked that we should give him a few months to decide he wants to come back, but that's just a pipe dream.

2) I was so excited for a few ladies in my PCOS group that had succeeded in getting pregnant. They were all far enough along to find out the gender! Sadly, one cyster lost their little girl this week. It's so sad to hear when someone loses a child, and even more so when that family has been trying for so long. I don't know what I can do for her besides be sad that the world lost a child that would have grown up to be a fantastic woman.

3) I'm back in the wheelchair. My pain had reached the point where I couldn't function by the time I made it home from work. And my job isn't all that strenuous! But walking to the bathroom, breakroom and the other offices was enough to make me pretty useless once I got home. So as long as I'm in the chair for most of the day, I can make it til bedtime without being in extreme pain. I'm still in pain, but it's mostly bearable. I have to look for another doctor because I'm running very low on useless pain meds, and that's all my current doc will prescribe.

4) I found a therapy site called BetterHelp.com that I was excited to try. I even got on the financial aid program so I didn't have to pay as much. I thought it would be really useful, but so far it just feels like I'm blogging and one person is responding. Except some of the things I talk about aren't things I would discuss on this blog due to extenuating circumstances. Like some people not knowing the whole story lol.

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Ok, that's it. I thought I would write longer, then I realized that there were details that I didn't want to share with the world. Those details are important to the rest of my thoughts and feelings.

So now I'm just working on work and support group stuff. September is PCOS Awareness month, so I've got lots of things to do for the group. And I'm trying to find a new workout routine now that I have the extra room and some new information about weight loss and exercise with PCOS.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Summer Book Challenge June Update

     I sort of forgot to post this update on June 1st. Oops. Oh well, I'm still quite satisfied at how many points I got. Too bad I missed the deadline for the link-up. 
    • 15 points: Read a book with "light" or "dark" in the title. (Or "lightness" or "darkness.")
      • Dark Fire, Christine Feehan, 4 stars
    • 20 points: Read a book with an animal on the cover.
      • Dark Blood, Christine Feehan, 5 stars. With all of Christine's books, there are some awesome sex scenes. If you don't like reading these types of scenes, this series is definitely not for you. But with this book, there was a HUGE fight, and it was very well planned before written. It was very detailed, and you could almost feel the intensity of the battles.
    • 25 points: Read a book that is part of a series with at least four books.
      • Dark Melody, Christine Feehan, 4 stars
    • 25 points: Read a book that is longer than 500 pages long.
      • The Face, Dean Koontz, 679 pg , 5 stars. This book was amazing, and creepy.
    • 30 points: Read a book with an alliterative title.
      • Sole Survivor, Dean Koontz, 3.5 stars. This was a re-read, and I was a little disappointed. I used to say this was the first Koontz book anyone should read, but it wasn't as great as I remembered from 10-15 years ago.
    Points: 115

    Friday, May 8, 2015

    Detox Update

    It's been almost a week since the weight loss challenge started. Along with that, I started two detoxes - one using bentonite clay, and the other using Newport Skinny Tea's 21 day detox. I haven't been very consistent with the tea detox because I don't take it to work with me and I don't really eat at proper times to get the best benefits. I have better success with drinking the tea when I work from home, but I'm really getting sick of that. The bentonite clay detox has gone better because I just drink it when I get home from work. I was worried about the taste - everything I read said it wasn't bad but it was a little weird to get used to. I totally agree. I'm taking one teaspoon in 8-10oz of water. It tastes like I dumped an a couple of individuals serving of half and half into the water, so a little milky. It's not really that bad, especially if you keep in mind the benefits of drinking it.

    I hopped on the scale just for the hell of it yesterday, to see if it had affected me at all yet. And yes, yes it did. I have lost 5 pounds since the last time I weighed in a week ago. 5 pounds in a week! I am so excited, because that means I'm almost under 240. The last time I actually tried to lose weight, I got down to 235. I'm just 5 pounds away from that. And I'm not really trying as well as I should. I'm still not working out, so I can't wait to see how well that helps! I will get the house organized and rearranged this weekend so I don't have to worry about having room to work out. I won't have any excuses. I really don't have any excuses now, just total laziness. And pain. But the pain isn't going to go away, so I have to work through it. I really think yoga would help if I got back into it. And I can do hot yoga outside, since it's starting to get warm here in the Lone Star State.

    The challenge is going well. The ladies are pretty interested in it, and trying really hard to complete all the weekly challenges. One of the ways to get points is to post a positive affirmation. There have been some super great ones! Everyone is really positive, and I'm looking forward to seeing this go on through the next 11 weeks.

    I've been dealing with a horrible fibro flare for the last two weeks. I have been in so much pain. It's forced me to work at home A LOT. I thought I would like it, but I was wrong. I'm tired of seeing the same walls... the slow connection between my home and work computer... and trying not to get distracted by my guys, my dog or the normal day-to-day activities that I usually ignore when I get home... But I'm getting better at it. Speaking of which.... I've got to go switch the laundry!

    Have a good weekend :)

    Wednesday, April 29, 2015

    OMG Books!

    I've spent a lot of time in bed lately, due to serious pain flares. It has not been fun. Having the guys at home to hang out with has been some help, but I'm still so frustrated by the lack of ability to do anything. So I've been reading books. Lots of books. I think I've finished 3 in the last week or two. When Angie posted about this book challenge she is doing, I decided I must do it as well! I just recently won two of Angie's blog giveaways, so I'm kinda hooked on her blog lol. I've always loved books as a way to disappear into another world. Books are movies on steroids. For less than the cost of one movie ticket, I can get hours and hours of video in my head. I can put myself in the movie, playing the main character. I can be the good guy, the bad guy, or the one you aren't so sure about.  I feel bad for the people that say they hate reading, or the ones who haven't picked up a book since some of the crappy ones we were forced to read in school.


    The challenge is hosted by Megan at Semi-Charmed. Here are the rules:

        The challenge will run from May 1st, 2015 to August 31st, 2015.  No books that are started before 12AM on May 1st or after finished August 31st will be counted.
        Each book must be at least 200 pages long.  Audiobooks and large print books are fine, as long as the regular print version meets the page requirement.
        A book can only be used for one category, and each category can only be completed once.  If you want to switch a category for a book later on, that is fine, just make sure to account for it in your points.
        Rereads can be used for a maximum of 3 books in the challenge.  This rule is meant to encourage you to try new books while still allowing you to revisit books from your childhood or young adulthood that you might get more out of now.  Please reread the entire book within the time frame of the challenge in order to count it; no simply finishing old books or partial rereads.
        The highest possible total for the challenge is 200 points, and the first five people to finish the challenge will be invited to contribute a category for the next challenge.

    Challenge Categories:
    • 5 points: Freebie! Read any book that fits the general rules.
    • 10 points: Read a book you have never heard of before. (Just go to a shelf and pick a book based on the cover, the title, whatever you want!)
    • 10 points: Read a book that has been on your TBR list for at least two years. (If you've had a Goodreads account for 2+ years, this will be easy to figure out. If you don’t, do your best to pick a book you’re pretty sure you’ve been wanting to read for years.)
    • 10 points: Read a book that won a Goodreads "Best Book" Award in 2014.
    • 15 points: Read a book by an author who is completely new to you.
    • 15 points: Read a book by an author you have read before. (No re-reads for this one.)
    • 15 points: Read a book with "light" or "dark" in the title. (Or "lightness" or "darkness.")
    • 20 points: Read a book with the name of a city, state or country in the title.
    • 20 points: Read a book with an animal on the cover.
    • 25 points: Read a book that is part of a series with at least four books.
    • 25 points: Read a book that is longer than 500 pages long. — Submitted by winter finisher Kristen from See You in a Porridge.
    • 30 points: Read a book with an alliterative title. (All words in the title must begin with the same letter; no exceptions for articles or prepositions. Examples: Gone Girl or Nicholas Nickleby. Yes, this is tough, which is why it's worth the most points!)
    So what books am I going to read? What a thing to think about....

    Challenge Categories:
    • Freebie! Not sure yet! I've got some books I need to finish, but that won't work for this challenge.
    • Read a book you have never heard of before. - Random book from the library
    • Read a book that has been on your TBR list for at least two years. This will take forever to choose!
    • Read a book that won a Goodreads "Best Book" Award in 2014. The Book of Life by Deborah Harkness
    • Read a book by an author who is completely new to you. One of the Bones books by Kathy Reichs. I bought it a month ago off the clearance rack and need to read it!
    • Read a book by an author you have read before. Disclosure by Michael Crichton
    • Read a book with "light" or "dark" in the title. The Darkest Touch by Gena Showalter
    • Read a book with the name of a city, state or country in the title. This will be a random library book search!
    • Read a book with an animal on the cover. This will be a random library book search!
    • Read a book that is part of a series with at least four books. One of the Dark series by Christine Feehan
    • Read a book that is longer than 500 pages long. American Gods by Neil Gaiman
    • Read a book with an alliterative title. Red Rising by Pierce Brown

    Now I just have to wait two days before starting the next book! Or finish one in two days. I could do either. Will you read along with me?

    Wednesday, April 22, 2015

    It's time to detox

    In just a little over a week, the first weight loss challenge for my local PCOS support group starts. I've spent a lot of time working out a challenge plan that will work for everyone. Because weight loss with PCOS is so hard, I really hated the idea of judging the winner based on how many pounds they lost. So this challenge is focused on becoming a healthier person. Points are awarded for exercise, eating enough fruits and veg, drinking plenty of water, etc. We have 4 people signed up right now, and hopefully more as the month comes to an end.

    I'm working on getting started early - I want to get some exercise in, and I'm planning on a detox when I get home tonight. Have you heard of bentonite clay? I was introduced to it in my latest nutrition class. It was suggested as a simple form of detox, and goodness knows my entire system could use a good scrub inside. I also think that a detox would be great for me since I quit smoking (again) 3-4 weeks ago.

    Bentonite clay, when introduced to water, becomes negatively charged. As they travel through the body, they attract positively charged particles in heavy metals, and flush them out. If you live anywhere in or near a large city, we are filled with heavy metals all the time from emissions. We breathe in all that crap, but don't do much to get rid of it.

    Credit: DontMessWithMama.com
    So there are several different ways to detox. I'll definitely be doing an internal one - 1tsp of clay with a big glass of water, at least 2 hours after any prescriptions. I'll probably do it at the end of the day, after I get home from work. You can also get the clay in tablets so you don't have to chug muddy water. I've read about adding a little apple cider vinegar to help the clay dissolve, so I might do it that way. I'm sure I'll figure out the best way for me as I go along.

    You can also take a clay bath - water as hot as you can stand it, and 1/4 cup to 3 cups of clay for 30-60 minutes. I have to borrow the roomie's bathtub, so I might not do this anytime soon.

    The third option is a clay mask. This is more for acne, cuts and burns. I'll definitely be doing some acne masks. My acne get horrible right around my menstrual cycle, so anything that can make it a little better will be something I fall in love with. For this, you are supposed to mix a little clay with a little water and make a thick paste. Spread it on your face, let it dry, then rinse it off.

    There's also been some research into bentonite clay getting rid of MRSA - the antibiotic resistant infection running rampant around hospitals nowadays. My bestie has had MRSA for years and can't find anything to make it better. We're going to try the clay out and see if it helps at all.

    BIG IMPORTANT NOTE: Do not use any metal when mixing the clay. Glass is preferable, and plastic if necessary. The metal in the spoon, cup or lid will take some of the benefits away because the clay will be focused on the utensil.

    http://wellnessmama.com/5915/benefits-of-healing-clays/

    Wednesday, April 15, 2015

    Music on my Calendar

    Sometimes you just have to plan for the future, even if you have no idea how you'll feel when you get there. This year, my planning has been for concerts! I love going to concerts. It's one of Hubs and I's favorite activities.

    For about a decade now, I haven't been a big fan of crowds. Can't stand them. Freaks me out and I get a little panicy. When I went to my first major rock concert, I felt the same way. I had never been to Gexa Energy Pavilion (it has been so many names over the years), a large outdoor concert venue in Dallas. And I chose a fairly large concert for my first one there, so I was pretty anxious on my way over there. Add Hubs' frustration with driving around Dallas, and I was freaking out before we ever hit the parking lot. But anywho, once we finally got inside and picked a spot on the lawn, I realized it really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. There was plenty of room around me so I didn't feel cramped and claustrophobic. After that concert, I was hooked. Now I've seen my favorite band, Korn, twice, and hopefully a third time later this year. I've seen Saving Abel, Nickelback, Slipknot, Creed, Rob Zombie, and a bunch of other bands!

    So this year I've been stocking up on concert tickets through presales and Groupons. I'm so excited about this year's selected concerts, because it won't be just Hubs and I attending. Since we've got the Roomie now, he's going with us to all of them as well! It costs a little more when I'm buying tickets for 3 people, but it'll be a ton of fun.

    Who are we seeing (so far)?
    Mid-May: ArcAttack!!! These guys were on America's Got Talent a few years ago, and I fell in love. I promised myself I would see them if I had the chance, and at $13 a ticket, heck yeah I will!
    End of May: Rob Zombie, Halestorm, The Pretty Reckless and Breaking Benjamin. I've seen Rob Zombie once, but we got there late and only saw the end of his set, so I have to go again! And two of the best chick rock bands out there? My idols! If I was hot and had musically inclined friends, Lizzy Hale would have some competition.
    Mid-July: Smashing Pumpkins and Marilyn Manson :) Because I can't live my life without at least one Manson concert.
    September: Slipknot and Lamb of God. We saw Slipknot on Halloween last year, but I left early. I didn't stay to listen to my favorite songs. And LOG is an old friend's favorite band, so maybe, just maybe, I'll get to see him and his wife.

    I'm SO DAMN EXCITED.

    Here's ArcAttack doing the Doctor Who theme song.


    Oh, and if you haven't noticed, I changed my blog again. I was bored, and decided I didn't like the pink anymore. So I went with frogs. I'm addicted to frogs, so it made sense.

    Monday, April 13, 2015

    Denial and The Rolling Stones

    This morning I tried to get something I've been wanting for a while, and I was refused. I don't want to go into any real detail. Let's just say that I was shocked and mildly upset to be denied. I don't do denial very well, mainly because I can usually get my way. I complain a lot about how things don't work out the way I want them to, but I do get my way in certain aspects of my life.

    The odd thing was being sad about it. And it has stuck with me. It's something that I should have blown off as soon as it happened, but it won't go away. Currently I'm frustrated about being frustrated. So I figured I needed the perfect song to get my mind off of it, or at least one to remind me that things are still all good in my world.

    Obviously the perfect song is You Can't Always Get What You Want by The Rolling Stones.



    Musical Mondays at My So-Called Chaos

    Thursday, March 12, 2015

    Happy birthday to me!

    I'm 27 now. Half my mom's age. My mom looks at least 10 years younger than she really is, but I look like my dad, so I probably got screwed. My little sister takes after the right side of the family, so she'll be drop dead gorgeous all her life. That figures lol. But I'm slowly losing weight, and maybe I'll be super hot when I get skinny too.

    But that's not the reason for this post. I wanted to write about how happy I am. I know that I talk a lot about the crap going on, and I figured, with the new age, I should remind myself of what makes me happy. I feel unhappy a lot, but when I think about these things, I can't help but smile.

    - I'm married to a great man that wants to make sure I'm always cared for, satisfied and happy.
    - I live with two awesome guys that love to make me happy - or torture me.
    - I have a great job that is super flexible and allows me to work from home when needed.
    - My family is healthy, so I don't have to worry about anyone dying anytime soon.
    - I have the sweetest, cuddliest dog ever.
    - I have a great apartment, with a big kitchen and comfy bed.
    - I have a working vehicle to get me around
    - I am the founder of a huge local support group. We hit 175 members this week!

    So things are good right now. And I'm working on making them better. I'm bow looking forward to 27.

    Monday, March 9, 2015

    It's birthday time again.

    Well, it's that time of year again. My birthday. Usually I don't focus too much on it. It's just a reminder that I'm a year older and still not where I wanted to be. But I'm looking at it a little differently this year, I guess.

    So how was the 26th year of my life? Not too shabby. We did move into the smaller apartment, and I was starting to save to move into a house. I started new meds which seemed to bring a sense of normalcy to life. I discovered painting classes, and have started to fill my walls with art. We made a new friend in a neighbor. Hubs and I made a drastic change in our relationship that has turned our world upside down for the better. Instead of moving into a house, we joined forces with our neighbor and got a bigger apartment! We saw some great concerts and celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary. I became vegetarian for a while, and really enjoyed it. I plan to go back.

    Now, as I sit here, 2 days from my 27th birthday, I wonder what the year will bring. 30 seems to be coming faster, and I wonder if I've been enjoying my 20s to the full extent I should have. I don't think so. The first couple of years that Hubs and I were together, we spent a lot of time out having fun. Then I got depressed and it stopped. I'm getting back to normal, and we've been having more fun. We're getting back to the happy people we used to be, which is nice. So maybe I'll make up for some bad years with a good year this time around. I've got my six flags membership, several concerts on the wish list, symphony tickets, and plans for the Ren Faire.

    I started making a change today that'll get me more hours at work, so I can get back to full time. I've been struggling with working enough hours, but I'm changing my sleep schedule so I have more hours in the day to actually get crap done.

    My goals for the year:
    - Get my driver's license back
    - Lose some weight
    - Enjoy myself

    Nothing too major expectation-wise. I just want this year to be a good year.

    Sunday, February 15, 2015

    New Apartment Update!

    I can't believe that I've been in my new apartment for two weeks and I haven't posted an update! It took 3 days to move the two apartments into one. We've still got some unpacking to do, but it's pretty comfortable.

    The kitchen is almost fabulous. It has plenty of counter space, but the cabinet situation is a little weird. I'm still working on solutions for organization. I've been cooking almost every night, and the guys have been pretty happy. I made homemade lasagna for Valentine's. One meat and mushroom for the guys and a GF veggie one with mushroom, cauliflower, broccoli and carrot. Yum!!!

    Spike loves the room he has to run around. He also can't get enough of the giant patio and his new ability to watch people.

    Now that I have a washing machine again, I've been going through all of my old clothes, getting them ready for my support group's clothing swap next weekend!

    When I told some of my friends that I was going to be living with two guys, they wished me luck and said I was crazy. Personally, I'd choose living with guys over girls any day. I love hanging out and living with guys. (I know what you are thinking, and get your mind out of the gutter! That's not the main reason why lol) They might be messy, but they aren't bitchy, love that I'll play video games with them, and if nagged properly, I can get them to do almost anything. They are bottomless pits when it comes to food, but I love to cook, so it's a win-win :)

    Hope you had a great Valentine's!

    Tuesday, January 20, 2015

    T-minus 11 days and counting!

    In 11 days, we make one of the biggest changes of the year. We are moving into a bigger apartment and gaining a roommate. I'm still really looking forward to it.

    I'm excited about the kitchen. I'm going to start working on my cookbook again - PCOS friendly recipes that are also allergen free. I've got my entire support group coming up with dishes they want to see. My goal is to have it out and purchasable before Thanksgiving. We'll see if I can pull that off. I have taste testers and photographers set up, so I really just need to create the recipes!

    I'm also happy that I will have a dedicated space for my laptop, so I can start working from home. This'll allow me to do more for my PCOS support group, work on side projects for extra cash, and blog more. But... I'm also going to have trouble getting around to working because I'll be living in a house with two guys that love playing video games. Ones that are really excited when I play as well. I'll make it work.

    I had an appt with my psychiatrist last week. I told him that I was concerned that the fun I've been having lately was related to a manic episode. I haven't felt normal in such a long time that I don't know what the difference between normal and manic is anymore. I'm not having any of the classic manic issues, like hyperactivity, racing thoughts, etc. But I do feel that I've been impulsive. It's really hard to learn to "live in the moment" and be bipolar. I never know if it's the start of mania or just being spontaneous. This move idea has all gone down in the last month, so that's pretty impulsive. But doc says that as long as I don't get to the point where I'm so focused on a video game that I skip sleep or work, or I'm not impulse spending away my paycheck, or getting violent, I should be ok. And I can always call him if I think something is wrong. And I've got Hubs to help watch. The new roomie is learning about my crazy side lately, because I was out of meds for a few days and I started acting a little different. One of the things I really like about the roomie is that if Hubs is being a pain, the roomie backs me up without my need to ask. I'm hoping that the meds I'm on will work for a long while and I can really enjoy myself this year. Here's to hoping.

    I've been eating pretty well, and so have the guys. I just have to watch and make sure that their scrawny asses don't lose any weight! So far they are ok. Roomie is glad that I'll have lots of room to bake, so I'll fatten them up with sweets :)

    I've got so much more to talk about but not enough time to type. I'll definitely have a new apartment update as soon as we move!