Saturday, March 29, 2014

Blogmopolitan Quizzes!

I was reading through Angie's My So-Called Chaos blog this week and saw these quizzes. She found them on Erin's blog, Two Thirds Hazel. I always love to find quizzes like these. Remember when us 20-somethings were in school and had Xanga accounts? We'd do all these silly quizzes about who we were, and of course we were pre-teens and teenagers, so our answers would probably not look to great on us now. But I could go on about that forever hahaha, so I'm just going to stick to showing off my answers!

You might have to click on the pic to blow it up. They are a little bigger than my new layout can handle. And I hope you can read the font I picked out. I love it. Have fun reading! If you want to do your own, Erin has the images available for download. Just open them in paint and type in your answers! Image 1 and Image 2



Friday, March 28, 2014

Surprise!

Surprise! I felt like it was time for a new blog design! Since this has become less like a PCOS/food blog and more like a personal one, I wanted to change it up! The trick was finding something I liked that really fit me. That's always been difficult - making sure the the design really reflected who I am, not who I want to be. To decide, I had to figure out who I am and what I'm about before I could find something. So who am I?

This has been a very thought-provoking question. I'm happily married 20-something redhead, with a zoo full of pets at home to keep me company. I love my dog, and can't wait to get another one. I love my birds, and will always have them - my home is never quiet and I love it. We are infertile, but fighting to roll with the punches and learn that if it happens, it happens. I'm a software programmer, so I'm a geek. I enjoy playing video games with Hubs and reading books. I love being an Aunt to all my nieces (and some new nephews!). I enjoy getting my hands dirty in my garden when I'm feeling up to it. I love food and cooking. I get excited when I find something in polka dots, argyle, plaid, damask or bubbles. I am attempting to make major life changes without stressing over them too much. I can't wait to have a home in the country, with goats and chickens! I could spend hours watching marine life at an aquarium. I LOVE FROGS AND FAERIES. Probably way tooo much. I have tons of them at home. My favorite colors are hot pink, teal and black. I like to be creative and unusual, even if it doesn't always work out right. I'm so happy to have been able to study different religions, because it allowed me to find myself spiritually. I'm a little crazy, and a little broken, but that's alright with me. It's a forever part of me. I repeat random movie quotes with friends and family - silly ones from movies like Evolution and Despicable Me. I enjoy yoga but don't do it often enough. We were married on our favorite holiday, Halloween! I love lilies, tulips, Gerbera daisies and daffodils. I could spend hours on word and math puzzles. I could spend all night watching the stars with Hubs. We can't wait to get out in the country so we can stargaze without light distortion.

I think changing your blog design is like changing your myspace page. Except it's slightly more stressful. After plenty of research and thought, and a little input from Hubs, My blog has been redesigned. I love it - it's a little girly, but maybe I have plans to become a little more girly in the future :) What do you think of the new look?

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Me? A Life Coach?

I took a quiz today called 'Should You be a Life Coach?' I did it more for entertainment than anything else. I've given out loads of great advice over the years, and I've probably got plenty of people to back me up. I can't get my own damn life straight, but helping other people is easy. My mom has always felt the same way in regards to organization. We can get other people completely organized, but can't figure out how to do it for ourselves. We're like hoarders trying to stop other hoarders from hoarding. (If I think about it long enough I could add more 'hoarding' to that sentence!)

I've given free advice since high school. Topics from boyfriends to homework were typical. After graduation came the more important topics, like 'How the hell am I going to make it as an adult?' And I've been there, an open ear, always free.

Anyways, the quiz said I really should be a life coach. But if I followed through with it, got certifications to make myself look better, and launched a side business, what happens when my advice backfires? (It never has before, because I'm so awesome, but there's always that chance... **grin**) I know I'm cocky, but you start to get that way when you watch every piece of advice you've given work out in one way or another. Even when people don't take my advice, I watch them come back and say 'I should have listened to your advice'.

But would I ever feel right charging for my advice? I feel like I should be like Lucy from Charlie Brown and charge 5 cents. I'd certainly never make any money on it, but I'd get a lot of business!

If I was to do something like this, I'd start with women fighting PCOS. That was the original point of this blog anyway, until I started getting more personal. I didn't think I should be giving out advice about PCOS when I wasn't following it anymore. Maybe this is something to consider in the future, extra cash after we move to the country and I figure out the next decade or so of my life. It could be chicken coop money haha.

Speaking of chickens, I've got another post to write about my hopes and dreams for next year!

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Thoughts about moving...

I've been thinking about this move a lot. It's literally the most impulsive thing we've ever done. Everytime we have moved in the past, it's been to bigger apartments. Now we are moving to an efficiency! Part of me is so excited about the total life change. It's not moving across country like some other people have done, but it's still a change of scenery. I realized a couple of days ago that because we will be in a different town, I'll be able to get the resident pricing at the recreation center! That way I can walk on a track no matter what the weather. I need to get back into that and this will help a lot! The complex jacuzzi is just outside our apt too, so I'll be in that all the friggin' time. I can never get the bath water hot enough, so a jacuzzi will rock.

We picked up the keys to the storage unit last weekend. The company we picked was the cheapest in the area, but the facilities sparkled. It was so clean, and the on-site manager is super friendly. I rented a 10x10, which ended up being 2 5x10s next to each other. It's kinda cool because I can put all the furniture in one and all the boxes in another. We also got to rent a moving truck for free from them - that is great. We can load everything up in one trip on the day we actually move.

I guess what I've really been thinking about is if this is going to be a good change or not. I'm pretty excited about it, but I'm also completely freaked out. I know it's a good thing. We'll be cutting down on the gas used to get to and from work. The electric bill, as well as the rent, will drop. Monetarily this is a ridiculously good idea. We can save up more money - that in itself is the primary reason for doing this. And it's not like we are really losing a lot of space. Our current 2 bed townhome is only 880 sq feet, and the new place is 598 sq feet.

So what am I freaking out about? Hell if I know. Maybe it's just typical stress and anxiety. Maybe it's just because I hate moving. I lived in a 300sq foot efficiency right out of high school. I even lived there for the first few months of my first marriage. We were happy then. We got to spend our money on fun things like date nights. And we shared a twin bed. If I can live in that tiny apartment with my ex-husband, then this should be a cakewalk. We don't have anyone over anymore, so that's not a concern. And there will be plenty of floor space to lay out an air mattress if necessary. We aren't taking much furniture - just the bed, dresser, barstools and dining table. Literally everything else is going in storage. We've got a small list of the clothes and necessities to take. I'm significantly more prepared for this move than I have been for any others.

So this stupid feeling in the pit of my stomach needs to go the hell away. I need to stop analysing this decision. I've already made it, it's happening, and I'm not going to stop. It's a step towards a more satisfactory future. If I don't force myself to do something like this, I'll nver do it. And I'm tired of being unhappy. As long as I don't make any changes, I'll continue being unhappy.


Monday, March 17, 2014

No, I didn't want to do anything this weekend...

By no means did this weekend go as planned. We were supposed to take our first trip out to Springtown to finally see the town we've already decided to move to, sight unseen. We were really looking forward to it, until 8am Saturday morning, when my body decided that I shouldn't even have stomach acid in my stomach.

We apparently ate some bad food, and had HORRIBLE food poisoning. I've had it before where I just can't keep anything down, but this was another whole level of hell. Did you know that severe food poisoning can include fever and muscle spasms? Couple that with my pre-existing conditions, and I was in agony all freakin' day. When I wasn't in the bathroom, I was staring at the ceiling in tears begging to sleep through it. Hubs got lucky and slept all day. But not me. I wasn't able to finally get a painkiller to stay down until 7pm. Between 7 and midnight I took 3 brands of pain killers, three anti-nausea meds and a sleeping pill before I was finally able to sleep. I wish I could have taken the sleeping pill much earlier, but I didn't want to waste it like I had been with some of the other anti-nausea meds I'd attempted to take earlier in the day.

When you are in that much pain, it's hard not to think about what it could mean for the future. I truly hope that the worst of the pain can be attributed to food poisoning, because otherwise I'm screwed. I should probably start looking for a pain management doc, since I'll very likely need one in the future. My rheumy already told me that he has put me on the highest dosage of a non-narcotic pain med without the necessity for frequent liver and kidney labs. If my pain continues to get worse in the future, I'll need the new doc. Now to find one that won't think a 26yr old with rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia and bipolar disorder isn't just a drug addict looking for a fix. I don't want to rely on things like vicodin, morphine or fentanyl to function. I don't want to live like that. At multiple points during the day I was also begging to lose my desire to be a parent, because I don't know how I could possibly take care of a child and risk days of pain like this.

I'm not supposed to feel like this. I could go on to rant and rave about how it's not fair, but it would be a waste of my time. I already know it's not fair, and I already know I can't change life. This was my attempt to find humor in the situation on facebook:

Me: "Dear life, where do we complain about defective parts? I need a new, functioning body, fast. Don't I have a warranty or something?"

Life: "Dear Lynne - we're sorry to hear that you are unhappy with your product. Unfortunately you only had a 25 year warranty, and it expired on your 26th birthday last week. If you need Dr referrals, don't ask us. Thank you for being such a valued customer. Sincerely, Life"

But today is the start of a new week. I made it to work early so I can put in some decent hours, we have plans to go to Speedzone to celebrate our birthdays, and we're going to check out the Texas Indian Market this weekend! Hopefully we won't have anymore unexpected illnesses. For at least a month and a half. I've got too much packing and moving to do, and I'm running out of weekends!

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Happy birthday to me!

Today, I'm 26. Today isn't really any different from any other day. I have no birthday plans, and pretty much all the people that wish me a happy birthday are people reminded by facebook.


There's nothing special about a 26th birthday. You are already legal to do everything. Wait, I think you can rent a car without having to pay a 'Under 25' fee. But does 25 count in the 'Under 25'? I don't know.

There's only one depressing thing about my birthday. I wish it wasn't such a disappointment, but there are some things I can't control, this being one of them. I wanted to be done having kids by 25. There's not much to talk about in regards to this, so I'm not going to say anything more.

But I'm making changes this year, so I am attempting to hope for the best. We are moving next month into a much smaller apartment, saving money to rent a house, and getting my student loans in check. We'll see how this new year goes.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

We're moving!

Sometimes random things fall right in place. We've been discussing moving out of our current apartment because we are just tired of living there. I immediately decided that I wanted to move to Springtown and get a big double-wide on at least an acre of land. (I have no problem with being considered white trash because I want a mobile home!) So we started looking and we've found some great options. The only issue was having all the money for deposits and the actual move. Hubs and I have poured over all our options.

Option 1) Find a house in Springtown.
Option 2) Find a house in our current area.
Option 3) Get a different apartment in our area. For this option, we'd stick everything in storage and find an efficiency/studio, maybe even a one bedroom dependent on the price.
Option 4) Stay in out current apt for another year and save up money. I REALLY don't want to stay where we are.
Option 5) Stick everything in storage and stay in a long-term hotel.

I started looking at studios/efficiencies today, for option 3. Within 20 minutes I found an efficiency in a great location, within our budget, and......... available when we need to move out! Even better - the complex is owned by the same company that owns our current place. Since we have lived there for over a year, our security deposits get waived! Yay!!! It'll be perfect. It'll be so small that we will have a super tiny electric bill instead of our current hefty ones from having two air conditioners. Last time I lived in an efficiency, my electric bill was never over $25. In the summer and winter, our average bills is 10x that amount. And we won't have to take much to the new place, because we never have anyone over anymore. We'll just need our bed, clothes, computer, tv and kitchen stuff. Everything else is going into storage. I've volunteered my brother-in-law to help pack over the next month so we have everything in storage long before we need to. It'll make life so much easier.

I'm excited. This is all going to work out, and by the end of the year we will have a place in the country, and chickens and goats :)

In other happy news, I got to talk to my nieces over the phone last night. I haven't seen them since they were babies, so to learn that they asked to talk to me made me feel special. We talked about school, t-ball, cheer-leading and the animals we wanted to have. Last night, before bed, Madi told her mom to remind me that I must go to her t-ball games :) I can't wait to hang out with the little munchkins again.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

March Goals!

I haven't blogged in a while. I'll have to post an update about life later... (Like how today is the first day I've ever voted!) But it's already time to create March's goals!

February Recap:
- WORK OUT! I've been slacking for two weeks and that has to change. -nope
- Eat more salad! - nope
- Visit the gym at least once! - nope
- Prep a week's worth of food over the weekend. - I did it on Mar 3. I'm counting it as Feb hahha
- WATER WATER WATER! - yep
- Beat Lara Croft and the Guardian of Light with Hubs, if I can drag him away from Dead Island. Nope! We started Diablo 3 and Toy Soldiers instead. No more gaming goals. 
- Figure out something fun and cheap for Valentine's Day. Guess I need to get started! - we didn't do anything.
- Reorganize the baking and spice cabinets in the kitchen. - sorta. I did put some of my bulk goods like oatmeal and quinoa in containers.
- Finally go see Dad and have Christmas. - Yep! 

I'm not even going to calculate a percentage of completed. This month, though, I have some very important goals that I really hope to accomplish.



March Goals:
- Work an average of at least 6 hours a day so we can save up for our move at the end of April
- Find a place to move to.
- Make something healthy and yummy for this month's PCOS group meetup - a picnic potluck!
- Start working out again.
- Continue the slow changes in my diet for success
- Visit my bestie
- Take Hubs outside city limits so he can set off fireworks for his birthday
- Completely ignore my 26th birthday.
- Start packing for the move
- And there are sooooo many birthdays!

I think that's enough for the month. Packing alone is going to be a big one. But I will have help hehehe... I have computer parts to sell, and my brother-in-law wants them. Instead of making him pay cash, I'm making him come over to help organize and pack.

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