Friday, July 26, 2013

A Weekend of Change

I have come to the decision that I need to start taking all of the supplements I was taking previously, before my decent back into the black hole called depression. I'm on enough prescriptions to keep me from jumping back into that hole, but they aren't helping me climb back up the mountain. I'm just sitting on the edge.

I stopped taking a lot of them for no reason. That was stupid. I remember being energetic, excited to cook, loving exercise. I need to get back to that. I've still got all the supplements, so I'm going to be bagging a lot this weekend. When I was on them last, I found it a lot easier to take them when they were already pre-bagged and labeled with the times I needed to take them.

My plan is to start taking these again:
N-Acetyl Cysteine
B6 & B12
High DHA fish oil

There might be more, but I'll have to check my box first. Yes, I have a box labeled 'Unopened Pills'. And it's a big box. I think I'll have to go buy more bags, because my last ones disappeared.

I'm also going to be filling out some short workbooks I found online in regards to personal development. (As well as completing more tasks on I like doing these because they ask questions I wouldn't think to ask myself. I learn things that I might not realize in the beginning. I use these to help me find aspects of my life that are better or worse than I thought they are - it's important to me to understand myself so I can better choose my motivations. I know that I'm a sucker for immediate change, and that doesn't exist when it comes to happiness. So I'm hoping that some of these questions and workbooks will help me understand why I give up if I can't have something immediately. I pulled them from a couple of different websites: (99 Personal Development Questions, Balance Wheel, Core Values) (Design Your Life) (Give Wings to Your Dreams) (Workbook O' Fire)

I want to understand myself. Isn't that something everyone should want? I recently read an article that said happiness peaks at two ages, 23 and 69 (Article here). Well, at least in Germany. I've passed age 23. I was happy at the beginning of 23, but not at the end. It was probably my fault, as I know that there's no one to blame for my happiness other than myself - unless I'm in prison or something, where happiness isn't necessarily easily cultivated.

What steps are you taking to be happy? Are there parts of your life that bother you? Parts that you want to change?

1 comment:

  1. My biggest success has been finding a place that I LOVE to be...barre3. I'm lucky that isn't an exercise studio and NOT a bar ;-) I've been trying to be more intentional with making sure I am present in the moment - even if it is just watching TV with my husband and not being on my iPad.