A couple of days ago, Mrs. O from The Ohlers nominated me for the Very Inspiring Blog award. Honestly, I almost cried. I've been blogging off and on for 3 years now, and I've never been considered for an award; especially a 'Very Inspiring' award. For a while I had hoped my blog was inspiring to other women with PCOS, but I started to realize lately that I'm not posting about happy stuff anymore. I'm sure that's partially due to the depressive funk I've been in for so long. It's hard to inspire others when you can't inspire yourself. For someone to still think I am inspiring gave me a warm, fuzzy feeling that I haven't had in a while. And I really do appreciate it.
And now that I have been nominated, it's my turn to follow suit! Here are the rules:
A) Display the award image on your blog.
B) Link back to the person who nominated you.
C) State 7 things about yourself.
1. I love my husband.
2. I treat my animals like children because we can't have any of our own.
3. I have two jobs and also volunteer with Power Up for PCOS.
4. I openly admit to being crazy, because I never want people to expect normality from me.
5. I only have 3 birds because that's all that the city I live in allows.
6. I disagree with the way a lot of people view/treat pit bulls - and when we have a house and yard of our own, we'll be working with the Villalobos Rescue Center in New Orleans to adopt one.
7. I recently discovered I'm not half bad at painting pottery!
D) Nominate 15 other bloggers and link to their sites.
I didn't make it to 15, but to be honest, I don't really read a lot of blogs. I've drastically cut down on my computer time.
Annie @ Just Beginning Our Illusory Hope
She is an inspiration because she has tried so hard (and succeeded!) in losing weight with PCOS. And now she's a Power Up for PCOS volunteer!
Leanne @ Healthful Pursuit
Leanne inspires me to get to know myself and try new foods. I lost count of how many recipes I've used from her!
Gena @ Choosing Raw
Gena inspires me because she decided to go back to school for Pre-Med, and she shows all of her blog readers how easy it is to make and eat awesome food that's super good for you!
Shannon @ 15th and Madison
Shannon inspires me because she doesn't let anything get her down. We have both gone through a rough marraige/divorce, although for very different reasons, and we are still moving on and getting back our lives.
Jen @ Life, Crafts & Whatever
She inspires me because even with adorable 4 little girls, she still finds time to do awesome crafty stuff. I know that if she can do it, I can too :)
Anasara @ Impregnable!
She inspires me because she hasn't given up on her journey to be a mother.
Sarah @ SECS vs PCOS
She inspires me because she never has anything bad to say. I can always count on her to provide a little encouragement when I need it most. I can only hope that I have the same effect on her that she does on me. And she's a Power Up for PCOS volunteer, too!
Christina @ The Ohlers
Besides having nominated me for this award, she inspires me because she spends a lot of time helping women with PCOS, from running a weight loss challenge to moderating a large facebook group.
E) Notify the bloggers that they have been nominated and link to the post.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
I finally went back to the psychiatrist. I knew from the first few moments I met him that I would like him. My mom went with me for my first appointment, and he asked her, "Do you want to come back and help me torture her?". We had originally planned for mom to come in with me, but while we were waiting, she told me that it was my decision, and she would sit in the waiting room if I didn't want her to come. In the last few months I have become more open and honest with her, so I didn't have a problem with her sitting in. It actually turned out great, because I'm not going to be able to go to her appointment with her since I have to work. I was originally supposed to go with her to her appointment so I could tell the doc things she forgot. She started taking notes about things she needed to tell him during her appointment.
We walk into his office and I see dozens of dragon figurines, as well as a lot of Star Trek memorabilia. It was awesome. It was a fairly short visit, much shorter than it was with my last dr. It was concluded that I'm bipolar 1, not bipolar 2. He did say that in the coming years, the number on the end probably won't make a difference, because they are usually treated the same way. During the session I realized that I had more problems than I thought I did - I knew that a lot of bipolar people had anger issues, but I didn't think that I did. I was wrong. He asked me if I got angry, and I told him yes. But I only got mad about stupid little stuff, not major issues. Like if hubby didn't put his wallet in the right place, I'd get pissed. Then it hit me. 'Holy shit, I do have anger issues. I'm one of those people.' It was a shocking realization, to say the least. But after I let it sink in, I was glad to finally understand why I got so mad sometimes. I hate getting mad at hubby, especially when I get mad over stuff that doesn't really matter. At the end of the appointment, the doctor summed me up in one sentence. And he was completely right. So he gave me several new meds. A happy pill to help me get out of the depressive funk I've been in, a bipolar med to help control the anger and level out my moods, and upped the dosage on an anti-depressant that my rheumy used to have me on.
I started my meds on Saturday night, that way if things went bad, I wouldn't have to be at work the next day. I still ended up missing Monday, because the combination of my bipolar meds with the sleeping pill I was given made me horribly drowsy and unable to concentrate. I didn't take the sleeping pill last night, and I wasn't so drowsy this morning - but I did have horrible dry mouth. That's apparently a side effect of all the new meds I'm on. It's not really a bad things, though, because it'll make me drink more water.
So I'm hopeful about the new meds. I'm looking forward to being normal again, having less anxiety, and maybe even having a social life. And speaking of being normal, my second job at the pottery shop has been great for me. After 23.5 years of believing I had no artistic ability whatsoever, especially in comparison to my sister, I was wrong. I can actually paint - at least if I'm following a design I can. Here's all the work I have done so far:
Monday, November 12, 2012
I don't remember if I found this on Pinterest or StumbleUpon - but either way, I decided I had to do it. This came from the Honey & Fitz blog. She used cork board, and if you value your time and sanity, I'd go with cork too. But I had black shelves from a collapsed bookshelf laying around, and I kept them because I figured I'd eventually use them for something. Here's her project:
Isn't it beautiful? I ended up choosing the word 'Passion', and I wanted to do it in red to match our living room. This project ended up costing right at $5. The nails were 97 cents per box and I got 2, and the crochet thread spool was $2.97. I bought my supplies at Walmart. I already had the black shelf, a hammer and tape. Be very careful with your fingers if you are using a hammer. About 2/4 of the way through the hammering, my husband got the idea to hold the nail with pliers so I'd stop smooshing my fingers. I just wish we had thought of it earlier!